I created my Beauty & Style blog StylEnigma in 2014 while recovering from a major lupus flare. I wanted to celebrate individuality and creativity because I’ve always had a problem with doing things just because the masses are. I’ve never been into cliques or trends, I’ve never been a follower or cared about being liked, and what I’m thinking usually escapes my lips before I can stop it. In essence, I have no desire to be anything other than who I am.
I am passionate about the many facets of beauty and fashion and I love to write, so I use it as a form of continuing education. Having lupus has meant having to adapt to physical life challenges many times and makeup has been a reliable vehicle for self-expression and transformation. I love the idea of being a canvas and successfully transforming into the embodiment of my mood, desired mood, or the expected environment from head to toe.
I stopped working on my passion project in 2017 because with all that was going on in the world, writing product reviews and wish lists seemed frivolous. Instead, I focused my energy on supporting my family, but along the way, I learned that they saw me as the “help” and didn’t appreciate the support. I learned that I wasn’t recognized as an individual, but as property, and that the sacrifices to my health, personal growth, and finances were a perceived entitlement. There was no value or respect for my title or for me as a human being. That was life changing.
It was depleting to know that my loyalty wasn’t returned and everybody but me deserved respect and consideration. The heinous act of emotional, psychological, verbal abuse, and betrayal in an attempt to bully me into submission and servitude was triggering, depressing, and very necessary wake up call.
The sad fact is; frequently major support systems aren’t seen as individuals but as tools. My “family” prefers that I stay sick and poor in order to prop them up and I know I deserve better. Supporting me – and only me – is a selfish act that is long overdue.
Writing feeds my soul so StylEnigma is now a Life blog; it will still feature fashion, style, beauty, and health topics, in addition to my failed attempts at keeping plants alive, critiquing nonsense, and pondering the human condition. I’ll continue talking about my black clothing addiction and my latest nail art project while learning new forms of art and content creation while riding this life til the wheels fall off.
Enjoy the ride,
What People Say
Don’t confuse my personality with my attitude… My personality is who I am, My attitude depends on who you are…Frank Ocean
The only thing I have to do is pay taxes and die.StylEnigma
Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened.Dr. Seuss